thank you house

I teared at the end of the House series finale last night. 

Best. TV. Show. Ever.

I will miss you :(

still getting ang pows

I met up with my aunt for a quick lunch because I haven't seen her since she got back from her trip to Malaysia (after climbing all the way to the top of Mount Kinabalu with her husband both in their 60s!). She gave this to me from across the table and said it was from my parents and that it was an early birthday present for me from my parents. My parents have never really bought me a gift per se, so I wasn't surprised it was an ang pow. I opened it when I got home and laughed out loud seeing U.S. dollar notes. So cute of them I thought. I'm 24, earning my own money and they still give me money. Lol. Not complaining, I just feel like their baby again. 

There is this overwhelming guilt that I bear with me that I have chosen to stay in Melbourne away from them when all I want to do is just to be with them and to take good care of them, at this point in life where I feel like I need to assume the role of the carer after they've taken such good care of me all my life. Little moments like these remind me that no matter how old I get, I'll always be their little girl ♡

heartfelt

Don't wish me happiness

I don't expect to be happy all the time...

It's gotten beyond that somehow.

Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor.

I will need them all.

Anne Morrow Lindbergh

I found out last night that a classmate of mine from secondary school back home just lost her husband. I don't know how long they've been married, probably around four years and they have a young son together. I talked to Matt about it and it made me so sad that such a soft-spoken and sweet girl as I remember her to be has to go through such an awful ordeal. Again it reminded me of how precious time is with loved ones and that life can be so mean and unfair. I can't imagine losing Matt so soon and at such a stage in our lives with so many of our dreams to live out together... and I can't bear to think of what she must be feeling right now. We aren't close and have not talked in years, but my heart goes out to her and I really really hope that in time with courage, strength and in absolute any way possible a sense of humour to all that life has thrown at her, she will feel happiness again.

mama

My mama is such a wonderful wonderful person. At such an occasion like christmas, her birthday or like the soon to come mother's day when the sole purpose of those days are to celebrate or spoil her, I am unfortunately faced with a really large wall block miles high and wide. My mum's a very simple lady with very little wants and needs and has never been one to use make up, elaborate skin care, cannot remember her ever doing shopping for fun and never in her life ever mentioned anything about her wanting shoes, bags or a pampering weekend at a spa. How difficult for me when all I want to do is shower her with all these nice things I can finally start to afford on my own in life without her telling me I'm wasting my money on things she never thinks twice about. 

Only lead I have at the moment is that she loves to travel. Foreseeing my absence from my parents when Matt and I started getting serious, I used to worry of how they would 'cope' without both myself and momentarily my bother as well. I worried for nothing, they don't need me. Haha! I find so much comfort in knowing both my parents are well and very active and have been travelling around the world so much over the last couple of years. So much so, that I would sometimes forget about their travel plans and over the phone find my mum with her sisters in Bali or the two of them walking the streets of Paris. It has been ages since my parents, brother and I have gone on a trip together and I think through this post have came up with such a brilliant idea! Growing up, my parents made it a point for the family to travel out of the country every year end. It was so exciting and something we would all look forward to through the year! An all expense paid trip for my parents with the two of us! Not quite sure how I"m going to pull that off because they don't like surprises. Haha, but I think it's such a great idea! We'd all probably only be able to do it end of next year though considering they already have several trips planned over the next 12 months!

I'm very excited :) I can't believe I've only just thought of it! Nothing like talking to yourself and making some sense out of it ;) If you can't tell, I miss them a lot and have especially over the past few days for some reason. Maybe because of mother's day... maybe.

obviously too excited about my holiday

Last time we were in America, which was two years ago, Matt and I found these 'lucky charms' like cereal at target and they were these massive I-need-both-hands-to-carry packs. We brought that back with us all the way Australia and several boxes of the original 'lucky charms' and found they were so similar if not better because we were pretty sure the 'non lucky charms' pack had a lot more of those sugary marshmallows :) You can imagine the many days we just had cereal for breakfast, lunch and dinner even after giving away most of it. I was so happy :) In case you didn't know, cereal is my kryptonite. I have however learnt to let go of all that glorious sugary goodness and have leaned towards more nutritiously beneficial kinds. You know, the bland ones I try so hard to mask with fresh fruits.

So, Matt and I had already made out our minds that we were just going to make a massive haul next time we were there and I really wanted to get some for my cousins back home. My parents will be visiting me in September so I was really happy that was a solution to what could have been ridiculous shipping cost to Malaysia. Because really, going away on a holiday to a Chinese like myself means buying gifts back for the entire extended family. Lol.

image from Sephora.com

Anyways, lol, what I really wanted to say (I hope for Matt's sanity I don't get Alzheimers. Imagine all the long winded stories I'd come up with over the years of my life which all somehow and someway relate to each other on repeat till I die!) when I clicked 'new post' was, how cute this Dior clutch makeup palette is :) Found it while browsing for something cute for my 16 year old cousin. I can't believe she's turning 16 this year. She's like the baby sister I never had. As adorable as this is though I won't be getting her that or for myself for that matter. It's too girly for me, although I have to admit is quite adorable. I was looking along the lines of a selection of tinted lip balms, a nice peachy pink blush, maybe a tinted moisturiser. You know, a fun start-up kit that's easy to follow that she can maybe use when she goes out for a nice dinner or a girly get together. You know, stuff kids her age do these days... I'm turning into an old fart :( I wonder why I've never thought of this sooner. Such a great idea!

so happy

Best. Day. Ever.
:)

finally!

So happy I got great news in the mail in regards to my Australian Permanent Residency!

First thing I thought was, 'I can travel however much I want!'

Looks like it's another holiday in Beijing in September! :)